Change

Change either scares you or excites you. I used to fear change because I was afraid. I was afraid of forgetting the past. But now I don't fear change as much. Change is necessary in order to progress. The hard part is letting go and moving on. But how do you let go? How do you allow yourself to move on?

One of the best ways I have found to help myself let go is to write. I write in my journal , I write scripts, and I write on my blogs. That way I can read about my fears. Writing helps because you know you have documented your life. So, when things change you can always go back to reminisce on the past.

There is a quote from the television show, "Everwood", that sticks out in my head whenever I think of change. The main character Ephraim wrote a paper on change. I'm pretty sure it was Greg Berlanti, the writer, who actually wrote it. It's really amazing and I think it sums up how the world thinks about change.

"The more things change, the more they stay the same. I'm not sure who the first person was who said that. Probably Shakespeare. Or maybe Sting. But at the moment, it's the sentence that best explains my tragic flaw, my inability to change. I don't think I'm alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still... It feels safer somehow. And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected... Who knows what other pain might be out there, waiting for you. Chances are it could be even worse. So you maintain the status quo. Choose the road already traveled and it doesn't seem that bad. Not as far as flaws go. You're not a drug addict. You're not killing anyone... Except maybe yourself a little. When we finally do change, I don't think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we're like this different person. I think it's smaller than that. The kind of thing most people wouldn't even notice unless they looked at us really close. Which, thank God, they never do. But you notice it. Inside you that change feels like a world of difference. And you hope this is it. This is the person you get to be forever... that you'll never have to change again."

And yet you change.

Love Love Love,
Krystal Dey

P.S. "Everwood" is a great series. I recommend it to anyone who is looking for a series to watch on DVD or to add to your Netflix Que..

P.S.S. I hope everyone has a great holiday and I wish everyone luck on their New Year's resolutions.

Love

"Step inside Krystal's head. It's a scary little world"

Wow! This is one of my last posts for class. I wonder if I'll maintain this blog. I will try. I mean next time you read my blog you might see actual pictures of me or hear my favorite tunes as you click from one post to another. The truth is I haven't had time to put all that "stuff" on my blog. The actual truth is I am a blog cheater. I have another blog that I update a lot more. It is about TV. I will give ya'all (what am I from Texas? ...I wish) the web address when I make it better. It's about one of my favorite things in all the land, television. Woo hoo! Yes, I have a blog dedicated to my love for TV. Stay posted and I'll link you to it.

Well my head is a scary place, good scary, not bad scary. So I guess I hope that you guys stay tuned to my blog and you enjoy learning more about me.

Peace and Love,
Krystal Dey

P.S. When I blog I feel like I am in a movie and my blog is a voiceover. It's great. There is one movie from my teenage years called, "The Perfect Man" starring Hilary Duff. haha. Anywho, she blogs and calls herself the traveling gypsy. Yeah...I guess I am saying I feel like Hilary Duff. In that movie. The leading man is Ben Feldman. He is currently on a Lifetime series "Drop Dead Diva" and he is pretty awesome in it. Wow! I cannot believe I just referenced a Hilary Duff movie and a Lifetime series. But seriously check out the show. It's actually pretty good.

Ashamed...

I do not like a certain franchise that has to do with the V word. (You'll figure it out). I call it TWIGFLU. (I dare you to figure that one out to.) But recently it looks like I am a "closet" fan because I have a magazine with KS in my backpack (hey, I have a subscription and she is on the cover) and I have another magazine with the heartthrob TL on the cover of "Rolling Stone" under my bed (I also have a subscription).

I am ashamed. As you can tell I can't even say the "real" names because I am so ashamed. As I said before I try and find the good in things. So here's my good...Taylor Lautner is dreamy. What!?! Now I am a creeper because I am older than him and he is under 18, but I don't heart him because of the V word franchise, but because of the "Rolling Stone" issue. He is a good kid. Just read the article. He is one of the few "nice" in Hollywood fellas.

Those of you who know me well, know that I do my research before a celeb becomes a favorite of mine, so I guess it's a pretty big deal. I can usually pick them well. For instance, Taylor Swift. (Weird connection, she is romantically-linked to the Taylor I mentioned above.) Anywho, I knew she would be huge one day. She is so nice that you can't help but love her. You don't have to be a fan of her music, but you can be a fan of her as a person. I think that Taylor Lautner will be the one big star who comes from the TWIGFLU-ness. Take my word for it. Now I am just rambling, but so will Justin Bieber. He sings "One Time" this kid is genius. I also have a slightly older crush on him and he's from Canada so I can't help but love him.

P.S. I have been studying all day and I literally haven't talked to anyone for 3 hours, hence the rambling. I talk a lot.

Peace and Love,

Krystal Dey

P.S.S. I think I"m supposed to do the P.S. after my signature. OopS!

P.S.S.S I just realized I am a magazine junkie. I love reading about entertainment. I have a subscription to "Rolling Stone", 17, and I just subscribed to EW.

P.S.S.S.S Spread some holiday cheer this year and go get yourself a copy of December's "Rolling Stone".

Love Love Love

Christmas is Here and Randomness!

Christmas is my favorite holiday. Not because of the presents (but it doesn't hurt), but because of the feeling you get from everyone around you. More people are giving and are more friendly during the holiday season, I wish the world acted this way all year. But I am guilty as charged. Around the holiday season I think of service to do or people to help more during the holiday than I do during any other month. ( I just made a New Year's Resolution in my head to be better.)

Today it snowed a lot. Oh boy! I wish I could love the snow more. I try and find good in everything, but I just don't like the snow. I mean I love to make snowmen, sledding, hot chocolate, and snow angels. But besides that my mind is pretty set that I would rather live by a warm beach.

Love Love Love

"The Proposal" Movie Review

A few months ago I went to "The Proposal" in theaters. The romantic-comedy was occasionally funny and I loved Ryan Reynolds' acting. However, I did not enjoy the script. I felt like it was an adaption of many cable movies I have watched. The whole I have a fake fiance and I am now in love with him thing didn't really impress me. It could have been an amazing movie, but the script didn't flow well. There were some really unrealistic parts of the movie. At one point a bird almost ate a dog and a phone. I think the writer just added strange things because the script had to flow.

I have recently re-watched it now that it is out on DVD and my opinion still hasn't changed. My whole family loves it and they think I am their cynical family member because I am a film major and I look at films differently now. Would I recommend this movie? I guess it depends on the person. If you love romantic-comedy's go for it, if you love Ryan Reynolds watch it, but if you're like me and you're sick of the fake fiance thing do not watch it.

Peace and Love,
Krystal

P.S. There is one ABCFamily movie that was actually called, "My Fake-Fiance" starring Melissa Joan Heart and Joey Lawrence and I didn't mind that one because I didn't expect it to be good or funny, so it ended up being better than I though. (But isn't that how it goes, if you expect something to be good it usually isn't and if you expect something to suck it's better than expected?) The script was weird and had a nonsense Mafia thing to it, but besides that I have a crush on the old teen heart throb Lawrence brother.

A Christmas Story

Last week I went to the play, "A Christmas Story" up at the University of Utah. I learned that it was an adaptation of the movie. I guess I have been living in a bubble because I have never even heard or watched the movie. I absolutely loved the play. It was entertaining, creative, and funny. The acting was incredible, I was so impressed by the little boy. My favorite thing about the play was the stage production. It was the most creative set I have ever seen. They had set changes instantly because everything was on wheels already on stage. They would pull out the house, light post, christmas store, or classroom as they needed.

The script flowed well and the actors really embraced their characters. It was a great adaptation of a movie. I really enjoyed the production. They did a great job, I can't wait to watch the classic movie.

But It’s My Dream…

I have watched my fair share of reality shows. Don’t ask me why, it’s not fun. Reality shows are like the surgery channel you don’t want to watch it, but once you start you can’t look away.

I’ve come up with a plan to get my own reality show. I have narrowed it down to 5 simple rules and then I’m in. Forget about my dream career because once my reality show kicks off I will be fabulously rich for living a much more dramatic life. How hard can it be?

5 Rules to be on a Reality Show
1.) You must talk slow.
2.) You have to eat out at least twice a day.
3.) You must actually care about your “friends” problems.
4.) You must take an acting class.
5.) You must go tanning twice a week.

P.S. Do you think the producers will be okay with taking the dramatic party scenes and turning them into melodramatic scenes about me in my sweats tv-ing and sandwiching?

Where in the World Did Devon Sawa and Billy Gilman Go?

I have recently been thinking about my younger years and the celebrities I idolized like the current young girls idolize Zak Efron. My Zak Efron was Devon Sawa. Some might remember him from Little Giants, Casper, or Night of the Twisters. Every time he smiled my heart melted and I knew I was going to marry him one day.

I remember watching Little Giants over and over just so I could see the beautiful Devon Sawa play football. Just last week I was flipping through the channels and happened to run across one of the networks playing Halloween movies. Luckily, Casper was on. I love when Casper is a real boy.

Back in my younger days I could have sworn Devon Sawa would be taking the same path as Leonardo DiCaprio, but I just can’t seem to find him anywhere. Sure, I’ve searched for him online, but he hasn’t acted in anything in the last few years.

This leads me straight to my next question. Where in the world is Billy Gilman? Some of you may know him as the young country star who sang the touching song, “One Voice.” Secretly, I was a fan. I would never let anyone know, though – especially my little sister, who has every single one of his CD’s. That little 12 year-old boy had the voice of an angel, and my little sister loved singing his songs because their voices were in the same range.
I searched for him online too, and it turns out he has recently released a few CD’s, none of which I’d heard of.

I just need to know where these two iconic young boys have gone and why they have not been around to make their mark in the 2000’s. I understand that not every teen idol can be as big as Leo. I guess I’m a little disappointed, because these two young stars started out huge, but then faded out. If you had asked me ten years ago who I thought would be the next big things, it would have been these two boys, who are now men.

I still have hope for Devon Sawa and Billy Gilman. Maybe in the next ten years Devon Sawa will have a number one movie at the box office, Billy Gilman will have a number one Country album, and as for me, I will be Mrs. Sawa.

P.S. You can follow Devon Sawa on Twitter at http://twitter.com/DevonESawa
Follow Billy Gilman’s recent work at http://www.billygilmanfans.com/

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http://www.wehearttvshows.com/

Western Family Graham Crackers are Gross!

The other day I wanted a night time snack. When I looked into the pantry the box of graham crackers told me that they’d be delicious dipped in a cup of milk. That’s what I chose. I dipped the cracker and took a bite. It did not taste right. The package had never been opened so I knew it wasn’t because they were old and then I realized they are Western Family. Now don’t get me wrong I am not prejudice to Western Family products. Most times I love the cheap price and the food doesn’t taste any different. But after eating 3 crackers (yes I continued to eat 3 even though they didn’t taste great) I realized that those suckers would be better with some Western Family chocolate frosting spread on them but since I didn’t have any I stopped eating. Sure, I won’t weed out Western Family graham crackers completely because they would be great with a melted piece of chocolate and roasted marshmallow smooshed(yeah…I don’t think ‘smooshed’ is a word) inside or even on the bottom of a creamy banana pie filling. But I will not eat them alone ever again.

Love Love Love

P.S. I’m sure I will finish off the box because I am a college student enough said.

P.S.S Sure. I guess this could be a food critique blog too.

Little Orphan's

Over the weekend I went to Tuacahn’s musical production, “Annie”. Obviously, I liked the play because it brings back the great memories of my youth. That little red headed orphan played on my VCR over and over. The writing for this show is very dated, but can still be enjoyed today. It’s a classical storyline and I enjoy it. I really like the fact that it is about a 10-year old girl because most musicals aren’t about young kids.

In my opinion, the one fault I find is I don’t really like the character Annie. Sure, she’s nice, but she seems a little aggressive and snooty about the fact that she has Daddy Warbucks. And I always feel bad for the other orphans. This musical is a celebration of not being an orphan anymore, but to me it’s a sad story of the other orphans who still live in the orphanage.

Love Love Love

P.S. “You’re a little orphan, nobody cares about you!” Name that movie…..

Answer: Shanghai Noon

Smells like Candy Canes on Christmas

Top 5 reasons why cold weather is gross

1. It is cold
2. I have to wake up 20 minutes early to start my car
3. I have to walk slow so I don’t trip
4. Goodbye flip-flops
5. I spend my time couching

Top 5 reasons why cold weather is full of awesomeness

1. Snow is pretty
2. Beanie’s and scarves are excellent accessories
3. I love hot chocolate
4. Christmas music is classic
5. Candy canes are delicious
6. Snowmen are adorable and snowball fights are even better
7. A neighborhood full of Christmas lights can take my breath away
8. Christmas is the season for giving and everyone is friendly
9. Christmas trees are full of magic
10. Sweaters are fuzzy

There is nothing better than curling up on the couch, with the fire going, sipping on some dark hot chocolate, and admiring the Christmas tree. But there is only one month I want to do that in, December. So why am I curled up on the couch, drinking some hot chocolate, watching the warm fire, and thinking about what sweater I want to wear to school tomorrow in October?

Love Love Love

P.S. I really do love Christmas. That is why my list consists of ten things, not five. I just wish Mother Nature would listen to my concerns and bring the fire watching, sweater wearing, hot chocolate drinking weather next month.

Eavesdropping

The other day when I was given the assignment to eavesdrop in one of my classes I had no idea it would be so exciting.  I felt like Jason Bourne without the killing. I found two girls sitting on the couch; I secretly sat next to them, got out a text book and pretended to be taking notes from my readings when I was really writing down every word they said. Sometimes the girls would stop talking and I thought that they were on to me. Luckily, they were just texting. The only disappointment from the whole assignment was the fact that I felt like I was listening in on an episode of the MTV reality show, The Hills. They talked really slow and the conversation was really great, almost too great. Like a producer had told them I was coming so they scripted out what they were going to say. That didn’t happen though. It was their reality.

 After I was given this assignment I had a fear of talking to other people in public places because I thought that maybe some other student was given the same assignment and they were eavesdropping on my conversation. The weird thing from the assignment is now I really like to eavesdrop. I listen to conversations going on and I want to write it down because it would sound great on paper.  

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P.S. Next time you’re having a conversation be careful because someone might be writing down what you are saying. 

Where in the World Did Devon Sawa and Billy Gilman Go?

I have recently been pondering on my youth and the pop culture that went with it. I remember watching "Little Giants" over and over just so I could see the beautiful Devon Sawa play football. To this day I am the girl who flips through the channels  and stops on ABCFamily when they are playing "Casper" during halloween time. I love when Casper's a real boy. Back in my younger days I could have sworn Devon Sawa would be taking the same path as Leonardo Dicaprio. But I just can't seem to find him anywhere. Which leads me straight to my next question. Where in the world is Billy Gilman? Secretly, I was a fan. I would never let anyone know, especially my little sister who has every single one of his CD's. That little 12 year-old boy had a voice of an angel and my little sis could master the songs anytime. Their voices were in the same range. We would do the dishes and sing along to "I sleep with 1 eye open and 1 foot on the ground".  

I just need to know where these 2 pop iconic young boys have gone too and why they have not been around to make their mark in the 2000's. Come on you boys. Come back! I take the word boys back. These boys are now men! Come on guys. Come back!

Love Love Love

Awkward Keyboard Moments!

I am afraid of the germs in the computer lab. It takes me at least 5 minutes to sanitize the computer and my hands before I can start any work. I get 2 complimentary Lysol wipes, and find an empty spot. I wipe down the mouse and the keyboard first and then I wipe down the desk area. Sure, some may call me a germaphobe, but I just call it cautious.

Obviously, it takes me a long time to get started on any homework I have to do in the computer lab. But, the other day it took me unusually longer. I had just sanitized my computer and started typing away. I have a problem when I type, I always break the 2^nd most valuable lesson everyone knows about typing. I don’t look at the screen when I am typing. I was almost finished with my assignment when I looked at the screen and nothing made any sense. All of my A’s were Q’s, the M’s were }, and my ? marks were ! marks. I had no idea what was happening. I tried pushing those keys over and over and the same thing always happened. I finally got to the point, the lowest of low. I made my sister, who was sitting next to me, log onto her Facebook and write on my wall the letters I needed. Finally, I was able to copy and paste the letters into their right position. I shutdown my computer and as I left I rubbed some the complimentary hand sanitizer on my hands.

P.S. Later I realized that if you exit out of the program then the keys will work again.

8 Structure Steps

1. The problem: Annie loses her lunch

2. 2. The need: She knows her classmates are her friends. But she runs around accusing her friends for stealing her lunch.

3. 3. The desire: She wants to find her lunchbox.

4. 4. The inciting incident: Annie accuses her classmates and it makes them mad because she won’t believe them. They didn’t steal her lunch. They accuse Annie of the one who is being mean.

5. 5. The journey: Annie goes through every kid’s lunchbox trying to see if they took her food. She gets to the point where she is bullying them, they are not bullying her.

6. 6. The climax: After Annie goes through her classmate’s lunchboxes the bell rings so she has to return to class. When she is back in her class she runs around looking through all of the desks. Right when she opens her backpack, the teacher says it’s time to sit down. Her desk neighbor tells her that that is her backpack and that Annie’s backpack is in the back hanging up where she left it.

7. 7. Self-revelation: Annie runs to the back and looks in her backpack and there is her lunch. She realizes that her classmates weren’t out to get her. They were telling the truth, they didn’t take her lunch.

8. 8. Denouement: Annie has found her lunch. Her classmates weren’t being mean. In the end, Annie sits down at her desk and opens her lunchbox. She pulls out her sandwich. Ready to take a bite, her teacher tells her lunchtimes is over and she should have eaten during the lunch hour.

Storyline

Annie, an elementary student, gets to make her lunch for school for the first time. She puts all of her favorite foods in her lunch. When she gets to school she brags to all of her classmates that she has the best lunch. When the lunch hour arrives she goes to her backpack to get her lunchbox and her lunch box is missing. The whole lunch hour she goes around from student to student trying to find her lunch.

Would you step inside this head?

Okay....wow! I can't believe this day has arrived....the day I, Krystal, have a blog. I am a little fishy about this whole blog thing because A.) I like people to call me on the phone B.) I have horrible grammar C.) I don't have a C. So you fellow Blog Followers, is that what you call it? I am going to call you my fellow "blogwers" you are going to have to deal with my grammar situation, I enjoy it, so if you want to be one of my "blogwers" you will have to suck it up and deal with it too. And if you are my true "blogwer" you may call me or text me because I will not be giving much info about my life. My blog will just be random thoughts that pop up into my head.

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P.S. Welcome to my head....